Since you left I have noticed that I seem to be changing back to myself. I notice that my focus has changed from what you would like me to be doing to more of a random exploration of what interests me.
I notice that even though I have been feeling very sad, I also feel a sense of relief that I am no longer living with the psychological pressure of your rejection and distain. Since you've gone I no longer feel stressed about not being good enough for you. Despite how apparently awful our marriage was for you, I can now at least just relax in my own lounge room.
Since you've gone I notice the cat no longer meows in long confusing distressed tones when he's in the house.
Since you've gone my mother admitted to me that she has really missed her daughter all these years. But then I guess she would say that.
Anyway, since you've gone, I think I'm changing back into myself.
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